It has been very cool lately – like in the high 50s/low 60s – and overcast. Gray May. It rained a few days in a row, which is very unusual. It makes it that much harder to get out of bed, because there’s a chill in the air and we stopped turning the heat on at night. It’s not cold during the night – it’s still pretty warm – but it’s chilly in the morning.
My boss was traveling today on business, and I knew there wouldn’t be much for me to do, but that’s an understatement. I brought my second book by Dick Francis – DRIVING FORCE and read about 70 pages today (not much compared to other days and other books). This book is good, but it didn’t grab me from page 1 like COME TO GRIEF did. So, I read, I sent emails, I “window shopped” on ebay, and I read YAHOO NEWS.
I really would have liked to have something to do – anything really – but it just wasn’t happening!
At lunchtime I had my salad and read for a while (big change from the morning!). Then, in the afternoon, I did more of the same. BOR-ING!
When I got home, Eric was working out. He had run some errands, washed the car and was lifting some weights he had brought with him in the RV. He’s taking his vitamins, riding more, and working out – I’d say he’s feeling better, wouldn’t you? I’m so glad. I think he had an epiphany and realized that he has to make the best of the situation here and keep in shape so that we can get out of here – wherever we go (we have no idea right now!).
Eric keeps talking about going back to NY. Right now, I’d pretty much say or do anything to make him happy, so I have been telling him we’ll talk about it and I’d consider it. Obviously, it’s not really what I want to do. The reason why I left NY hasn’t changed – I can’t take the cold. But the truth is, if we were in NY, I’d only be unhappy 4 or 5 months of the year, but Eric’s unhappy every single day here. It just doesn’t seem fair for him.
Charlotte would be a true compromise, because it doesn’t get very cold, and there’s great mountain biking, but he has his heart set on NY. We’ll see what happens. I don’t want to get anyone excited, because we have no idea what will happen, or when, but I did want to tell you what we’ve been talking about.
Obviously, there are a lot of reasons why I’d love to be back in NY – family, friends, and Manhattan are my top three! But the cold scares me. It scares the hell out of me. I told Eric I would definitely not go back to work in Manhattan. Commuting in the winter is not an option. I told him I’d be willing to temp, like I am here, and then I could stop for the winter, work on my crafts and just “hibernate.” He said if he wasn’t working and I was he’d drive me to work every single day and then pick me up. That sounds like a good deal, but what if he IS working?
There’s so much to think about, and it’s so confusing, and scary, and I really don’t even like to think about it. Sooner or later we will have to, I know, but right now…
I made us salads and NUTRISYSTEM pizzas for dinner – baked in our new toaster oven. It works great, but I burned my finger! Don’t worry – it’s nothing serious! We had a fresh mango for dessert. I really love mango and (as George Costanza found out on SEINFELD) it's an aphrodisiac!
After dinner I watched AMERICA’S NEXT TOP MODEL while Eric watched the basketball game, and then I watched AMERICAN IDOL (whee! Syesha made it to the top three and Jason went home!) and Eric watched WORLD EXTREME CAGE FIGHTING (don’t ask).
I’m dreading tomorrow, because I know it’s probably going to be more of the same. I think I’m going to walk around the office and beg work – anything. I’ll wash people’s mugs after they’re done with their coffee!
At least I have something to look forward to after work. Eric is taking me to SOUTH PARK to BIG KITCHEN for their Mother’s Day Lasagna Dinner. It’s $15 (including tax) for Spinach Lasagna, salad, garlic bread, a drink and a brownie for dessert. I love BIG KITCHEN, but I’ve only been there for breakfast, so this should be fun. You had to make a reservation (it’s a really small restaurant) and moms eat free with a reservation of 4 or more. I think that’s a cute idea. I know I’m not a Mom, but I DO love Spinach Lasagna!