Last night, I was wide awake at midnight. I was worried I wouldn’t sleep, so I took TYLENOL PM. I started watching SNL, and I got really tired, shut off the TV and went to sleep.
I slept like a log and woke up at 8:00am. I guess I got 8 hours, so I should have been okay, but I was SO groggy. I just stayed in bed and watched some TV (SNL from last night) and then I started thinking about the RV, which has been on the street for a week now. I decided to get dressed and go check it out to make sure it was okay. It was fine, but there were no cars for about 100 feet in front of it, so I decided to move it, just so it wouldn’t be in the same spot all the time and it would look like someone’s actually driving it.
It was pretty easy, since I just had to drive straight up about 100 feet. Then, I went back inside and had breakfast, worked on the computer, and cleaned the apartment. The problem was, I felt like I was in a fog. I used those pills a few times before and they DO make me groggy, but this was ridiculous.
I decided to lay down again at about 1:00pm. The problem is, it was hot out, so I had the windows open and a bunch of guys across the way were watching the CHARGERS game and they kept screaming and shouting when it was exciting, which made it really hard to nap.
I finally got up, showered, got dressed and went food shopping. First, I walked to the mail box and it was pretty hot out and I was walking up hill really fast, so I was literally dripping by the time I got to KEIL’S. I did a fast food shopping – I got TWO 12-pack cases of SNAPPLE with no broken bottles. Wheeeeee! I also got a bunch of veggies to make a big salad and that was about it.
When I got back I was drenched and it was hot in the apartment, so I threw on my bathing suit and went for a swim. It’s the end of September and it was still hot enough out and the water was still warm enough. It felt GREAT! I did 4 laps and just enjoyed the cool water. By the afternoon the pool is completely in the shade, so I don’t have to worry about getting a sunburn.
When I got back inside I took a fast shower and then relaxed for a while before making dinner. I made a big salad – enough for dinner tonight and for lunch tomorrow.
I enjoyed my salad while I watched TRADING SPACES. It was about two sisters who fight all the time. They did the living room in a Moroccan style for one sister, and a master bedroom in a modern goth style (purple and white) for the other. They were both pretty fabulous! I love the jewel tones in Moroccan design and think it’s perfect for a shared space like a living room or dining room, because it’s fun for entertaining!
Tomorrow I have to fax a letter to NY DMV to find out if there’s going to be a problem getting a new clean title for the RV with MY name on the title with the lien and the old seller’s name on the Lien Release. This is what caused the problem with the titling company, so that's why I need a new title. I just hope NY DMV doesn't give me a hard time!
I also have to get in touch with our insurance company to get Eric’s new car added to our insurance. I’m SO busy at work, but Eric’s not in a place where he can make phone calls, and I don’t want his sister to have to take care of everything (she’s taking him to DMV tomorrow to register it, once I have the car insured). It’s a 1996 Mitsubishi Gallant with over 100,000 miles on it, but it’s just to get him around town so I think it’s fine.
I really feel the weight of the world on my shoulders lately. It didn’t get any easier when Eric left. In a way, it got harder, because I’m still doing things for him, but there’s the 3-hour time difference to deal with, and the fact that he’s so far away. I want him to be able to do things on his own, for himself, but I guess he has to take it one step at a time.
So, until he’s got his act together, he’s still relying on me (and his sister) for a lot and it’s just draining. Once he’s got a car, life will be easier for his sister, because she won’t have to chaffeur him around anymore, which I know is SO hard on her. He’ll be able to drive to the express bus, and also run any errands he has to run in order to get an apartment, etc.
Tomorrow I’m going right after work to get my hair cut and colored. It isn’t driving me CRAZY like last month, but it HAS been four weeks (BOY time flies – whether you’re having fun or not), so I figured I’d get it over with before the roots get really obvious.
I spoke to our niece, Melissa, this afternoon. I’m happy to report that she’s home from the hospital, but not resting that comfortably. She has a lot to deal with right now. She can’t even sleep in her bed, because it’s too hard to get up, so she’s sleeping on the couch. She has a long haul ahead of her, but she’s super-strong, brave and resilient, so I know she’ll be fine. I really admire her, because she really doesn’t complain. She just tells it like it is, and always says she knows it will get better. I love her so much and it really kills me that she has had to go through all this.
Well, it’s going to be a busy week, and I’ve got to get a good night’s sleep, so I’ll close now. I’m hanging in there and I still believe everything will turn out okay. I have to believe. I have no other choice.