All you SEINFELD fans will recognize that heading immediately as the words Frank Costanza yells over and over again in one particular episode. What I really needed is some serenity after the day I had today.
I trained the temp all morning, and it really started to get to me. She wanted to gab and talk and not work, and I kept trying to get her back on track. Then, when I WAS able to get her working, she didn’t seem to be concentrating and wasn’t absorbing most of what I was explaining. Maybe I’m wrong, and she’ll be a genius tomorrow, but I kind of doubt it!
I also knew the woman I work with up there had to leave at noon today, so nothing much was going to get done once I went downstairs to HR at noon. Here’s the funny part, I was trying to teach her really fast and get everything done that had to be done before we all left at noon (me to HR, the temp to lunch, the woman I work with home to wait for the SEARS repairman!). I felt stressed, but I didn’t realize I was talking really fast and getting a little testy with her, until the other woman came by and said, “Calm down, take it easy. You don’t have to get it all done today.”
Then we all started laughing. I was laughing so hard I thought I was going to tinkle! It just suddenly felt so funny, and we all got a good laugh out of it. When we went down to HR, she came with me, because she forgot her pass at home and had to get a loaner. We told some of the girls what happened and then we started laughing again. It felt good to laugh, because it relieved a lot of the stress. I realize that I take too much upon myself. I always want to give 150% and I want everyone else to, too. I also am so afraid to disappoint anyone, and I can’t have a “whatever happens, happens” attitude. I never could!
The afternoon in HR was very busy, too. I had interviews to set up for three candidates – one of whom has to be flown to San Diego from Albany, California, which I found out is above San Francisco. It’s complicated when someone’s traveling and this is the first time I’ve had to set up interviews in that situation. I got a lot done, and then it was time to leave. I was excited about my Serenity Yoga class tonight!
I called Eric as I was walking to the car and then sat in the car for a while and talked, because I knew when I got home I had to change and go to SOUTH PARK for the yoga class and by the time I got out of there he would be sleeping.
I got home, changed, did a few little things around the apartment, and then left for South Park. I found a spot around the corner (parking can be difficult around there, so I was pretty lucky) and went inside. It’s very nice and the woman behind the counter was very friendly. She gave me a little tour, showing me everything, and told me I was going to love this class.
As you can see from the picture I showed last night, the room is very large with big windows one one wall. The instructor had us all put our mats in a circle, rather than rows, so we were all facing each other.
While it was MUCH less strenuous than the other class, I was still sweating a lot, and it was still hard for me. I’m just in SUCH bad shape that the least bit of strenuous activity is difficult. I’m a weakling! She didn’t have us doing strenous rotations of poses, but we did have to hold poses for what seemed like hours, but what was probably actually about 4 minutes. That’s a LONG time to stay in a position that’s hard to begin with but also requires muscle control!
Anyway, I enjoyed it a lot and will definitely go back. I am going to look at the schedule to see if they have that on weekends, because I think it would be great to do in the morning, too.
When I got home I was starving and made myself a big salad (enough for lunch tomorrow and dinner tomorrow night, too!). I ate it while watching DANCING WITH THE STARS.
Tomorrow, I’m supposed to start full time in HR. The woman upstairs wasn’t happy about it, and I told her I’d be there to support the temp and show her more stuff, but I can’t keep working this 4 hours/4 hours. It’s just really getting to me and my nerves are frayed. I explained that I’m training for 4 hours, and then getting trained all afternoon and my head is spinning!
Meanwhile, I just found out today that Yom Kippur is THIS Thursday. I don’t know why I thought it was NEXT Thursday. So, now I have to go to work tomorrow and tell them I’m not coming in on Thursday. I hate to miss a day’s pay, but it’s the holiest day of the year and I just can’t work on that day.
It will be nice for me to stay home and reflect on my life and atone for my sins (there aren’t many – believe me!). I’m also going to try to fast. I always try – but never make it to sundown. I get a headache and that drives me crazy.
I’m so excited about Jimmy coming on Friday night. We’re going to have the BEST weekend. Maybe it’ll be good for me to fast on Thursday, because then I can make up for it all weekend with Jimmy. He’s going to hate me, because I’m going to be a very BAD influence. I’m taking him to all my favorite restaurants and we are going to ENJOY!